من واکسینه نیستم I am not immune

من واکسینه نیستم

مدت هاست
دیگر شبها
کتاب نمیخوانم
خوا ِب هیچ کاغذی را
.آشفته نمی کنم
با اشیاء
ُمدام چ
ِپ نمیکنمبعد از این
پ چ ِ
بی قهوه و سیگارهای عصر ِنبا ذهنم
.جلسه نمی گذارم
تنها کلمات را
ِش به. ویرای اشیاء می سپارمدیگر َس َرم
روی سینه ی هیچ شعری .خواب اش نمی َب َرد
بعد از این
ِ هوا واژه ها. و نمی شومگوش میکنم ؛
ِی لِنگار ِی َسر به
.واژهها ُسرفه می کنند
ِی پراکندهویروس ها
.در کتابخانه منتشر می شوند من میدانم ؛
این بیماری
! ُمسری است
!من واکسینه نیستم
 

I am not immune

It’s been some time –
I no longer read books at night
I don’t disturb
the sleep of paper
I no longer whisper
with things
Then
Between the coffee and afternoon cigarettes
I don’t arrange meetings
with my mind.
Only words can honour
the sculpting of things
My head no longer
falls asleep
on the chest of any poem
Then
I won’t be led astray by sloppy words
I listen –
The words are sputtering.
Scattered viruses
circulate in the library
I know –
This disease
is contagious!
I am not immune!
 

I am not Vaccinated

It has been some time [that]
I no longer read books at night
I do not disturb
the sleep of any paper
I no longer continually whisper
with objects
After this
Between coffee and the afternoon cigarettes
I do not convene [any] meetings
with my mind.
I entrust only words
to the editing of objects
My head no longer
falls asleep
on the chest of any poem
After this
I won’t become disorientated by sloppy words
I listen;
The words are coughing.
Scattered viruses
Are spread in the bookshop
I know;
This illness
is contagious!
I am not vaccinated!
 

‘I am not immune’ is a poem every lover of reading will appreciate. Spirited and entertaining, it is, really, a love poem to books, which – just like love – are hard to resist falling for. We were of course very conscious of the need to clarify that ‘I am not immune’, first published in the early 2000s, is not a pandemic poem, which is why we decided to avoid using the original’s use of words related to ‘vaccine’: ‘vaksin’ in Farsi, a loanword from French. What the group really enjoyed was retaining the poem’s light-footedness, as exemplified by its short lines and our opting for the springboard-like feel of ‘Then’ instead of ‘After this’.

Kostya Tsolakis, Poet-facilitator

Additional Notes:

– This poem is from Bahareh’s second book of poems, published in 2003. – »خدا خواب تازه تری برایم دیده است« که در سال هشتاد و یک توسط نشر »نیم نگاه«

– The punctuation on is a little erratic – the full stops and exclamation marks at the beginning of the line are meant to be at the end of the line.

– Note that in Farsi, the active verb is always at the end of the line – so the full meaning of a line may sometimes only be revealed several lines later; e.g. “read” in the first 3 lines:

مدت هاست

It has been some time [that]

دیگر شبها

No longer / anymore, at night

کتاب نمیخوانم

I do not read books

– Both the word “vaccinated” (vaksiné) and the word vaccine (vaksin) in Farsi come from the French (and are said as they are in French) but vaksiné is not a verb here, it becomes a verb in conjunction with “I am not” (nistam)

– L1: “It has been some time” is the conjunction of two words – “period, duration, term / feeling of time” modat (مدت (in plural (ها (+” to be/is/has been” (h)ast (است (so the first line is in fact one word, signifying “it has been some time”

– L2: digar (دیگر = (any longer or anymore / shab-ha (شبها = (nights

> so time is stretched between L1 and L2, which both also serve to lengthen the time before we know where this sentence is going

– L4: khaab (واب ِ خ (alone means both sleep and dream.

– L5: aashofte (آشفته = (distress, disturb

– L6 & L12: aashia’ (اشیاء = (is a plural; objects or things, in the sense of physical ‘stuff’ – L12: To clarify my literal translation: it is objects being entrusted with the editing / wordsmithing of words; in Farsi words is qualified by ‘only’, which makes it hard to write literally without interpreting more

پ چ ِچ ) pech pech 7:L –

ِپ = ( whispering to someone; an onomatopoeic word, but also a form

of communication that presumes a specific audience

– L10: “with my mind” is made up of mind + the possessive “(a)m”

– L11: jalase (جلسه (is a meeting or a sitting – this workshop could also be a جلسه – L13: sepordan, to entrust/deposit, the verb at the end of this line is used in a number of expressions such as to memorise (to commit to memory), to bury (to entrust to the earth), to die (to entrust your soul)

– L18: sar be havaa ( به سرَ وای ِ ه ( translates literally as the French tête en l’air but has a meaning closer to confusion (than the French whimsical)

لِنگار) velengaar 18:L -ِو (is the conjunction of vel and engar

– L19: goosh mikonam (میکنم گوش = (I listen. The verb goosh daadan, literally translates as “to give an ear”

– L22: ketabkhane (کتابخانه = (bookshop, translates literally as house / place of books – L22: montasher (منتشر = ( to spread, but also means to publish, circulate. From the ن/ش/ر root Arabic


Original Poem by

Bahareh Rezaei

Translated by

Elhum Shakerifar with The Poetry Translation Workshop Language

Farsi

Country

Iran